.Tuesday, May 26, 2009 ' 4:44 AM Y
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IM BACK EVERYONE!!!!!!!haha wb to me~~~
HAPPY B'DAE TO SIMEON,ELSA & NYEIN SOE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
went to parkway parade to celebrate simeon's b'dae~
realised tt mayb neo min was right... im behaving like a 5 yr old...
a cry baby...
went to parkway..remembered something..
the good times we had together...
was 'emoing' while strolling in the mall...
i didn't know why...i kept wanting to cry.. but told myself not to...
when neo min discovered i was abit weird...she pulled me to one side...
i didn't know why i felt a sense of relief...
i finally broke down...
parkway is a bad place.. it brought many of us bad memories..
i really dunwan to cry again...
cuz i realise tt crying is tiring...
im really tired of crying...
but i dunno why im doing it now..
how can i stop??
do i really have to dig out my eyes to stop crying??
even a 5 yr old behave better than me...
my mom always say im mature....
i dun think so...
im childish like hell..
crying over such a thing..
crying over EVERYTHING...
why am i so useless...
behaving so tough on the outside..but cries easily..
i really dunwan to be like this...
anyone save me? i really dunwan to cry anymore...
people kill themselves because they lose their bfs or gfs...
but i feel tt losing a fren kills a person physically and emotionally without doing anything... why cant i be like evon...forgive and forget easily... why must my memory be so good...but i dunno why... although i see you everyday, in my memory,your face keeps fading...cant i be in coma? so i wont be hurt anymore... we speak to each other like strangers...i dun wan it to be like tt...
crying...
Xinting(: aka starlet/xinxin . 